Canopy Glow (2008)

You paper cut the air above the tundra when you came back in silence, in sheets, and the neighbors called me up out of my sleep to watch you unfold the blanket.
Wrap me back into the womb.
The first thought is fear, and brother, it emits a crippling bend.
A shame you can't know that you carry until you've seen it offered down.
Watching shielded in the silence, shielded in the knowledge that has no use for language.
Standing on the lawn at a distance.
Watching shielded in the silence, shielded in the knowledge that has no use for language.
Standing on the lawn until you wish to be crushed in its collisions.
You paper cut the air above the tundra when you came back in silence, in sheets and the neighbors called me up.

"Northern Lights" LIve at Rocketown, Nov. 1st 2008

Canopy Glow (2008)

When I can't find the word I'm looking for
or I reach into the drawer with four tries
but nothing sticks, there's no telling why I opened it.
I try, but I just forget.
What there once was, I have not forgotten.
What there once was, it won't leave me alone.
The synapses still fire and direct my thoughts,
they just seem tired of hunting for homes.
And I'm not brave enough to say that I am not afraid,
should I return to confused bits of blindness,
a tongue wanting words in the sweet speech finds a form,
then returned to the bald toothless need of a child hunched and cradled
(his spine returns the curl to fit the cleft of an arm).
O, we are embarked and return to the place we start to thrash against it.
It's a wild thing to accept, and who can hold it?
Think about the loss of anything.
Well, someday if you wake to a nameless stranger in me, lead me outside.
Let me go.
If I'm already there, just let me go.
I'm not.

Canopy Glow (2008)

When you get up
When you wake up
Put your hands up
Pick yourself up
And you pull yourself up underneath the dugout cubby enclave of the sidewalk overhang,
cement buckled upward and the rain came dripping through the crack.
We hear the voice of Italo sing of a holy fire.
When he stomped,
the dirt fell on our eyes.
Hell, he stomped.
It was a mystery to me when you crawled out from underneath the sidewalk overhang.
Cemment buckled upward and the rain cam dripping through the crack.
We heard the voice of Italo sing.
In the second zone of the city a baby born in the nightclub mold where goons dry heave the factory glue all crust-lipped and bloddy nosed.
Fire took the roof off,
hollowing the carcass
(licked it like a bone).
Sway and mone to songs of some pitchless praise,
stoned.

"Italo" Live at the Cockpit, Leeds England on February 12th, 2008

Canopy Glow (2008)

An astronaut lost his finger to the back of a grain truck
and I can't stop thinking about it. I'm thinking about it.
Isn't everything strange?
Buildings as brick boxes to be opened,
turned sideways and cracked.

"All The First Pages" Live from Rocketown, Nov. 1st 2008

Canopy Glow (2008)

You were baptized by a dollop from a cool whip bowl
(finger flung)
Sulfer water, holy water from the drinking fountain of the high school cafeteria
Among the great cloud when Margie whispered "Amen"

"Cafetorium" Live at The Drake Hotel Toronto Saturday February 28, 2009

Floating World (2006)

Yesterday, the land went dry.
I sprinkled ash of my neighbor's urn
Over the yard.

Sprinkled in the hope
That should I cut out

Floating World (2006)

One: became the widowed son.
Them, to me, "Out of sight, out of mind."
Someone said that to me and I smiled.

Two: Listen as he sings through you.

Floating World (2006)

Someday they will build monuments for us.
People like me walk out the door,
We'll pull you out into the streets
Of far off countries. If I'm ready to go,
How could I let you dwell in delight?

Oh see, all things are so bright and spiritual.
These seeds are growing in extraordinary colors.
Convinced? Even I believe that I have grown something.
It's cased in light.

"Genessaret, Hoodwink, By Number" Live

Matt Joynt

Floating World (2006)

Through silence,
When something fell,
I saw a smear of red across
The neighbor's leg.

The land was dry as dead.
He crawled with dripping heels.

Trailing black bits followed out of the mound,
Clung to the speckled skin where glue blood spattered.

I saw a bone, a nail hooked and hanging from the foot of man.
I knew he thought it dead.

"Yuki! Yuki! Yuki! and Hanasakajijii Three" Live

Floating World (2006)

Oh, night set on when I fell down
In the corner of the field.
Cuckoo, I too sang,
Spit the blood of welling thougohts.

Waking with a hundred grains.
Salt stains ringing 'round my legs.
I could not face you.

Chapters (2006)

Hey, I want to talk to you but it's too late.
The silence that you've kept
has brought us here to the middle of the road.
Now, I want to be the savior in this mess.

I’ve waited here for hours by the phone.
When will you call me back?
All that we have shared is not lost.
You know history will never change.

Here and now, I want to know the truth.
You’ve got to let me down slowly.

Wait, we never had a chance to build our life.
If it was only me and you I’d be all right.
I need to let you go.
All that you have shared with me,
I guess this is how it’s meant to be.

Here and now, I want to know the truth.
You’ve got to let me down slowly.

I could never be the one you want — it's understood.
Apparently you moved on a long time ago with love.

Here and now, I want to know the truth.
You’ve got to let me down slowly.

플로리다의 Tallahassee 와 Orlando 에서 1999년에 결성되어 2006년에 해체한 크리스찬 락밴드.
Drifting Into Amazing (2002), The Need to Feel Alive (2005), Chapters (2006) 의 정규앨범과
데모 앨범인 2003demo (2003), 두 곳의 레이블에서 동명의 The Existence EP (2004) 앨범을
각각 1장씩 발표했다.

Chapters (2006)

It was hard letting go of you
I never want to feel that way again.
Can you recall what I said to you:

"Just let it all out now,
just let it all out now.
I never want to say goodbye tonight.
I’m staying here if that’s all right.

I’m never going to let you out of sight.
Don’t leave me now, just hold on tight.
There’s nothing left for me to do.
The plans we made have fallen through.
You just close your eyes and hold on to me."

It was hard letting go of you
I never want to feel that way again.

"You blink and life will pass you by.
Let love prevail now, don’t let it die.
I’ll take you in my arms, we’re going home.
You’re not leaving here alone, not this time.
Well I don’t care what they say
no one here is going to take you away.
Stand up one more time and hold on to me!"

It was hard letting go of you
I never want to feel that way again.
Can you recall what I said to you:

“Just let it all out now,
just let it all out now.”

Don’t say goodnight.
Don’t say goodbye.

Chapters (2006)

Looking back I can see why you would leave.
I never knew what life would be like without you here.
But it’s all been said before,
and it’s all been done before.

I know you’ll never be the same.
I know it’s got to be this way.
I know you’re all I need tonight.

A second chance is ever on its way.
When you return I will do anything to make you stay.
But it’s all been said before,
and it’s all been done before.

I know you’ll never be the same.
I know it’s got to be this way.
I know you’re all I need tonight.

And you say
you don’t want to think about how
I’m here for you
when you’re down and out.

1. All I Need.mp3

Chapters (2006)

I see that behind your eyes
you’re filled with fear, but you just run away.
You want to sit down,
you want to talk now — let us get beyond this somehow.
Broken hearts are meant to be free.
Instead you crawl back, your eyes have turned black.
Falling down so everyone will see that

never once did you believe.

Don’t go.
You just run away,
you just run away from me.
Turn and run away from who you’re meant to be.

Clearer and clearer, you’re drawing nearer.
When you return I will be here,
I promise this is where you belong.
But you just leave it,
you never want it because
every time it’s just the same old story —
"Will you ever let me be?"

Don’t go.
You just run away,
you just run away from me.
Turn and run away from who you’re meant to be.

1. The Runaway.mp3

Chapters (2006)

Cradle eyes, with your smile I can see beyond the veil.
Changing times.

Passing lights almost near the end of the tale.
One more step will unfold who we are and who we'll become.
Don't forget that I am here with you now
all that to say that you have so much to give.
And you have so much to give.
Cradle eyes come with me.

You fear the change and walk with me just to see the end of the day.
I can hear the voice of God whispering, "Don't run away."
Cause you have so much to give.
And you have so much to give
Cradle eyes come with me.

And you have so much to give
Cradle eyes come with me.
And you have so much to give
Cradle eyes come with me.

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

Stop and look around, everyone’s sick in this town.
Plagued with apathy; walking through life aimlessly.
Crawling on the ground; they’re tired of getting knocked down.
Their face is badly burned, the rescuers haven’t returned.

Who will help me out?

I can’t do this on my own.
Is anybody reaching out?
Does anybody care?

We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)
We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)
If you want them to change - they will.
If you give everything - they will.
We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)

Lonely and confused.
Hurt, broken, scared and abused.
Angry at the world,
They never know who to turn to.
So everyone who knows the truth please lend a hand.
The opportunity may never come again.

We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)
We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)
If you want them to change - they will.
If you give everything - they will.
We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)

Is anybody reaching out?
Let your love come quickly.
We can’t ever let them slip away,
Because every soul is waiting.
We can’t let them go, no.
Does anybody care?

We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)
We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)
If you want them to change - they will.
If you give everything - they will.
We could be the ones. (Let your love come quickly)

1. 08 - Opportunity (We Could Be the Ones).mp3

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

Hey, where were you today?
I was on my death bed, per say.
Here, I wait for your return,
Waiting as you run away.
And now, several weeks have passed
I wonder when you’re coming home.

I’m here, I’m lying on the floor.
I’ve never felt this alone.

You are never compromising.
You are always fantasizing.

Dreams, our dreams have come and gone.
You claim that you’re still chasing yours.
So wait - where do I fit in?
I give enough, you still want more.
So I guess, I guess I just give in.
My broken life is built around yours now.

So will you stay with me?
Everything’s perfect, everything’s perfect tonight
Cant’s you see?
Don’t say a word, no don’t say a word.

You are never compromising.
You are always fantasizing.
Don’t want to talk about,
Don’t want to think about,
These problems that we know,
These problems that we know.

So will you stay with me?
Everything’s perfect, everything’s perfect tonight
Cant’s you see?
Don’t say a word, no don’t say a word

1. 06 - Romance in Denial.mp3

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

Everything’s fallen to pieces in my broken life.
Feeling I’m numb to the spirit inside.

Has my heart changed?
It’s beating on its own.
I’m feeling all alone;

I can’t even see who I used to be.
A man once filled with joy.
Who always made the choice to think with his heart.
Oh no.

Where is the life that I used to feel?
The love was real, burning deep inside.
Where is the pain that I long to touch.
No matter what - I need to feel alive.

Living a lie.
My passion will escape,
Beneath the great mistake
my own misery.
How can I break this hardened soul of mine?
I’m running out of time for my recovery.

Where is the life that I used to feel?
The love was real, burning deep inside.
Where is the pain that I long to touch.
No matter what - I need to feel alive.

Everything’s fallen to pieces in my broken life.
Feeling I’m numb to the spirit inside.
I need your touch

1. 03 - The Need to Feel Alive.mp3

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

We’ve got a lot to learn.
Why do we always run away?
The time to fight is now.
The silent voice is of no use
We’ve got to rise up.

And so, the story’s not over,
The war hasn’t been won.

All that’s left is understanding the enemy is alive.

There is a war at hand.
It’s a battle to choose to truth over pleasure.

And so, the story’s not over,
The war hasn’t been won.

All that’s left is understanding the enemy is alive.
We see him all the time.

He’s beat us down for so long,
It’s time we stand up for what’s right.
He’s beat us down for so long,
Let’s stand up for what’s right.

All that’s left is understanding the enemy is alive.
There is only one truth out there:
We will win the fight.

1. 02 - Encounter.mp3

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

The severed plan has failed us once again.
The seeds of fear have grown too deep.
Our sinking ship will never sail again.
With promises so high to keep.

This time we have to take the chance.
Though everyone has turned away.
Ambition will see us through.

I need you, I can’t lose you now.
There’s one thing you got to let me know...

Are you changing, are you changing your mind?
Because I’m telling you now for the last time.

We’ve tried so hard to make this on our own.
I’ve learned that we are far too weak.
And in times like these let’s keep our eyes above.
Frustration makes it hard to see.

This time we have to find our way,
Bitterness is creeping in.
I feel it, let’s stop it now.

Are you changing, are you changing your mind?
Because I’m telling you now for the last time.

Don’t worry about a thing.
Stay with me, don’t leave me now.

Are you changing, are you changing your mind?
Because I’m telling you now for the last time.

1. 01 - The Last Time.mp3

Dan Cole : Lead Singer/Guitar/Piano
Ben O'Rear :  Lead Guiter/Background Vocals
Tom Gustafson : Bass Guitar
Nathan Lee : Drums

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

Everybody’s talking, how the world’s changing.
Everybody’s wondering, “How far will we run?”
Can you see the train wreck?
People scattered on the ground searching for answer they’ve never found.
And all I have is answers
To yesterday’s questions.

You should’ve known...
You should’ve known...
You should’ve known
There’s more to life than “Live for Today.”

I can hear them whispering how they all feel lonely.
If they only knew where true love is found.
I can see them dying, falling on the floor.
Everybody’s waiting to run out the door.

You should’ve known...
You should’ve known...
You should’ve known
There’s more to life than “Live for Today.”

So slow down.
You just want to be loved.
I hear it all the time.
Everybody’s wondering how far will we run...

You should’ve known...
You should’ve known...
You should’ve known
There’s more to life than “Live for Today.”

1. 11 - Knowledge.mp3

The Need To Fell Alive (2005)

I found a letter on my desk that I wrote to myself.
This is what it said - It’s hard to believe...

“To whomever this may concern, stop wasting your time
Pretending to be somebody you’re not.

Stealing the spotlight from anyone you can,
It’s been far to long.

“Silencing your every fear - this is what you need to hear:
You are so vain. You are so vain.

“Maybe someday you will come to see your insecurities.
The pressure and the pain to live out your dream.
Stuck in the middle of the ones you love;
Do not think that they know who you truly are
Your own enemy.

“Let me say that you’re not a hero.
You’re simply a man.
You’re useless when left by yourself.

“Silencing your every fear - this is what you need to hear:
You are so vain. You are so vain.”

1. 07 - The Vanity Letter.mp3